Father there is a friend i really love so much, she and i are pretty close, of all of my friends this one am concerned the most, although i know You love her more though it's really hard for her to see, with all the web of lies and deception the devil has fed her with. Last night we were discussing, her situation has worsened and of this am certain. She said she felt more like a loser because she wasn't sure of where her life was headed or if she was going to ever succeed at anything, eyes sunken inside from crying, all because she hasn't prayed in what seems to be eternity, she has been reading Your word but she isn't really learning anything, all the sermons she seemed to be listening to at church only served as death sentence letters rather than something to give her hope. There are folks who have been changed by what she has done for them, and she asked me if it was the end for her, father she ain't really sinned but she is just trapped by the voices in her head condemning her and telling her how she ain't worth anything good in her life, she keeps the TV and radio turned off because they only end up making her feel more horrible than she already feels, they make her look like she isn't worth anything if she doesn't wear makeup, or remain half naked all in the name of fashion, or objectify herself via sex all because she needs to feel accepted , she forgot that those things don't glorify you, forgot the sacrifice you made for her on the cross. Taking lashes to preserve her delicate skin, nails smashed into Your Holy hands just for her, including damaging Your legs with nails so that she can be able to wear high heeled shoes again Lol, forgot that she exudes beauty in all ramifications and no matter how i try to tell her that she refuses to listen to me, Lord its killing me to know that the devil still holds her bound with depression all because she feels no one loves her, her weak attempt to cure her depression has me crying most of the time, because she is busy seeking attention in all the wrong places, instead of resting in You and trusting your word.
Lord i can't bear to lose her, because lately she has given up hope of ever finding happiness, i am tired of speaking to her about finding happiness in God rather than in men, if she doesn't want to talk to You then Lord please hear from me, I will keep praying until she knows that You are the only One that can give her the love and care she desires, Help me make her know You, fill her with Your spirit till she succumbs to your will. Help her come to this knowledge 'that a man who is yet to be led by the holy spirit cannot lead her anywhere but himself", help her know that no matter how huge her sin is that You would forgive her, fill her with Your spirit, search her and point out the areas of her life that are unacceptable before You, Lord all i ask is empty her, break her, please just have Your way with her, till there is nothing left for the devil to work with.
But Lord, see there is something else i have been hiding…………
The person am praying for is really ME.
P.S Lord i know that there are many ME's out there please help them know that there would be no rest in their spirits until they come to the knowledge of You, help them understand that You don't need a perfect vessel to show Your glory to the world, You need them in all their imperfectness and weakness to turn them into a thing of beauty, to be used to your own glory, help them understand that You alone can give joy, care, peace and every other thing that we crave in our human existence.
LOVE SUZANNE
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