Thursday, February 13, 2014
EMOTION THURSDAY: YOU MUST LOVE ME
"Love sure is a beautiful thing"
Here is a beautiful piece from a dear friend.
Enjoy the read.
I sit here contemplating whether to call your cell phone or not. I check my account balance and realize that its exhausted, Talk about dilemma!!!!!
Just within 20 mins my phone rings and its you.
How on earth did this happen?
And they told me telepathy was a vague idea.
Took me 30 seconds to pick up.
Trying to put up a front that doesn't show how excited I am about talking to you,
you see:
You were on my mind the minute I woke up.
Butterflies in my stomach
Inability to concentrate
Sweaty palms
Stuttering when I speak.
Rapid heartbeat
Clumsiness in another dimension even tho I enjoy it sef when am awkward with you cause you get me.
Above all that the joy I get when I am with you.
Like time could stop and fade sef
You are my friend first and it makes utter sense that I get this feelings.
There were series of in betweens but you are like nothing I have experienced.
Well I have no idea, if you feel the same way but it doesn't matter.
Because for me to experience this feelings, its a privilege for me.
If this is what love feels like, I am happy i felt it for you.
But then, I see it in your eyes whenever you call my name, your careful choice of words, your inability to understand why my sing-song voice affects you so much.
You want to make me happy each time even if its at the expense of your own happiness.
With this evil smirk on my face, it suddenly hit me.
I Don Catch you.
Today nah today. You Must love me.
XoXo
Sushy green. @ICCSTN on twitter.
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Thursday, February 6, 2014
EMOTION THURSDAY: MANY THINGS
So my internship ended last friday and I have been horribly busy since then. I know I promised that this feature every thursday, trust me PHCN has not been faithful to me as usual.
Here is a piece from walter shakes, I hope it inspires you as much as it inspired me.
Disclaimer: the writings here are the opinions of the writer. And by no means the ideas of Reflections.
Enjoy the read.
I do not understand the world.
The world, it would seem, does not understand me either.
Life is full of paradoxes, and the people who live in it perpetuate them. Life's often called a bitch – I assume the hobbies that earned her that moniker keep her very busy. But I wish she will take a moment from all her bitchy business to answer some of the questions I have milling in my head. Like, why the world encourages you to be who you are, and the right people ill love you for it. And yet, when you are exactly that, all the people that matter, and then some, will form a solid wall of disapproval.
I am many things, most of them a riot of personalities.
Reserved yet genial. Introverted yet appreciative of company. A lover of good humor and laughter, often stricken by long spells of welcome brooding. I write lots of words, and often times, I find very little of them to speak. Music and stories are a balm to my soul, and the joy of company a welcome catharsis.
I am many things, and God made them so.
And the world wants me to be all of them, as much as I can be. Yet it brings woe on me for doing just that. That's the irony of life, I suppose.
One of the many reasons she is called a bitch. Because no matter what battles you pick, she will always make ready a sufficient variety of opposition. Those who stink of disapproval and judgment.
At the end of every day, I always come to one realization – to not rely on the gratification gotten from others. It is fleeting. Here now, then gone. To be who I am, whilst mindful of the people around me. Because ultimately, my happiness is no one's gift to me, but my objective to accomplish.
I am many things, and all of them I am resolved to be.
Walter Ude.
You can follow him on twitter @Walt_Shakes,
And he blogs regularly at www.mymindsnaps.wordpress.com .
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Monday, January 20, 2014
THE BEGINNING OF THE END + 20TH POST
And, no am not talking about my days on earth, am speaking specifically about my days as an intern.
See how quickly time flies sha. Feels like just yesterday when my dad was consoling me because I nearly passed out when I looked for a place to intern at and just couldn't find one for two months, crazy right?
Am sure if you had to stay for a month doing nothing, you definitely will feel my pain gan (shout out to the students affected by Asuu strike, 5months no be beans).
Just last week someone asked me about my plans for school and beyond and I was in a daze about what to say.
I realized that I have to stop thinking about what I want to do and figure out what I should be doing instead.
Looking at the amount of wisdom and growth I have amassed since I was seventeen, it sure is mind blowing. But I have God to thank for all that has happened to me since then. The good, bad, and the ugly.
"One day you are 17 and you're planning for someday. And then quietly without you ever knowing, someday is today. And the someday is yesterday. And this is your life- John Green"
When I started this blog, I was a bit anxious about how I was going to get people to read my stuff, but I had amazing people who pushed me to see further than today, and I kept writing, it's been wonderful since then. I want to say thank you to everyone who has read, shared, commented and criticized my blog. Moving forward without fear of the future and am sure it's going to be awesome. Here i am saying thank you for your love and support.
God is my muscle. Heading towards the future geared with positivity, determination and a smile, knowing that God's hand is in it all.
P.S its 20th of January and it's my 20th post.
Love Suzanne.
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Wednesday, January 15, 2014
EVERY DAY IS BEAUTIFUL.
There are times that we wake up in the mornings and feel like you fell off a cliff somewhere. Due to the fact that we had a lot on our minds the night before or there was an unsettling in our spirit.
We drag ourselves out of our beds/mat and murmur words that hardly sound like prayers and more like someone was forcing you to have a conversation when you don't want to, but because its a routine to pray, you just have to do it. (I can see people nodding their heads in agreement)
But truth be told. It doesn't matter what problems you are having, or what trials you are facing. All that matters at that point in time is knowing that God is bigger than any of your problems/trials you have or will have.
You are not dead,sick,suffering from temporal or permanent insanity and definitely not memory loss.
Its not news that I dance on my way to work, on this fateful day, a mad man, a homeless man, cause he spoke to me in clear english and said my child. Why do you always dance and laugh every time? I was scared, but I answered and told him, Because I am Alive and well. He told me something I would never forget "Never give that up for anything".
There are times when I wouldn't even want to wake up, but I just get my worship on and sing a brand new song to my happiness.
You have the ability to infect someone with happiness. you may not know it. But people watch your every move, someone might me having a bad day and feel better by just seeing how happy you are.
So here is me saying no matter what you are going through. Every day gives you a chance at a fresh start. Learn to find beauty in what doesn't seem beautiful.
Also remember that psalm 30:5 says that God's anger last only but a moment, His goodness for a lifetime. Tears may flow in the NIGHT, but JOY comes in the MORNING
Smile the minute you wake up, even when there is nothing to smile about. Lamentations 3:19-24 says that even when the thought of pain and homelessness is like a bitter poison, and its all I can think about that it makes my spirit depressed, hope returns when you remember this one thing.
The lords UNFAILING love and mercy still continues.
FRESH as the MORNING and as sure as the sunrise.
Christ is all you have. And it doesn't get better than that. Smile, it makes it all easy.
Here is a song from Jamie Grace, titled beautiful day. Makes me smile am sure it will have the same effect on you:
http://50.30.32.119/yt/d/db/jamie_grace_beautiful_day_lyric_video_h264_44018.mp4
Please comment and share your experiences about how you get through each day.
Love Suzanne.
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Sunday, January 12, 2014
GRACE TO FORGIVE
I can't believe what they did!
Don't they know its wrong.
How could they treat me like this!
I feel like I missed the clue!
Its like a dagger is tearing through my chest.
The choices are laid before me!
Love or hate?
It doesn't feel right to just turn a blind eye at what they did
But I realized its my pain
And I have to deal with it.
70X7 times you said.
But its not much of a deal
When I think of all that you have done.
I now realize that I have to take offense because I will be offended.
Love or hate?
The choices are laid before me.
Even if I choose hate, it won't change their hearts.
But my pride won't let me lay me weapons of warfare on the ground.
I build bridges only to tear them down.
Most times I think the pain would go away
When I get the apologies I crave.
Truth be told,it doesn't matter if they are sorry or not.
Freedom comes only when I surrender to the sound of your mercy and grace.
Heb 10:17 their sin and lawless acts I will remember no more.
Father help me forgive them
They don't know what they've been doing.
Even when I feel like I am the one losing.
Grace to forgive and forget is all I ask.
Because I have the life of christ in me.
I don't want to act like an elephant who doesn't forget.
Because you forgive and forget.
I choose to do the same.
I choose to love.
I choose to forget just like my father does.
Grace to forgive.
Grace to forget, that's all I ask.
Love Suzanne.
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Thursday, January 9, 2014
EMOTION THURSDAY: DEAR HEART!
Its just 9days into 2014 and I thought to start new series that would be regular from mondays through sundays(different tags tho). Today is tagged 'Emotion Thursday'. I would be sharing a piece called 'Dear heart' its the daily dialogue that goes on with our inner man, the confusion et all.
I would appreciate feedbacks, and I am going to be accepting entries from others who wish to be part of the series. Ranging from articles to letters, talking about what confuses human, ranging from the easiest to vilest of sins. The confusion that ensues in our lives.
Please do send you entries to edensue7@gmail.com. I would love to read and feature your thoughts.
I would start off with mine. Enjoy the read.
Dear Heart!
I won't shower you with pleasantries, because you must be still hung up on the binge of emotions that easily beset you.. Most times I wonder if I belong to you or you belong to me?
They said follow your heart, but I am afraid it has gone too far, exceeding proper boundaries and taking me into territories unknown. I have decided not to accompany you on that journey.
Because most times I end up being the one at risk hence making my eyes swap its white color for scarlet like rainbows after a thunderstorm. Only that it has just two colors in its repertoire (Red and white. Red is so not my color.)
You developed a mind of your own, grew wings and feet and took off for your adventures, you only ended up getting us into trouble. Now I am afraid to do a review of my life because I don't know what I would find,with your recent escapades am sure I would be disappointed with the ratings.
You assailed my thoughts with doubts all because of your emotions, you tour all the wrong places in search of love and acceptance. Leaving me wasted and drained in
No wonder the good book says in Prov 4:23 above all else guard your HEART for it is the wellspring of life.
But now I know better, I choose to trust in the lord with all my heart and lean not on my own understanding, resting in his will and watching him set right the paths that I tread.
Knowing that it ain't about me and you any longer, but the masters will, not about what I want but what I need. Because I desire a will and a calling above mine.
So before you decide to apologize and I get sucked into your mess again. Here is what I have decided.
I AM GIVING YOU OUT!!!!!
Yes!
To him whose will I desire above mine,The creator of all flesh.
To break and mend us back again.
So here is me saying though you may be frail and fail,
God will strengthen you and remain my portion forever.
Here is to a new beginning, a fresh start and a peace filled life.
P.S In case you are planning on rebelling against me, know that I will keep renewing you till you have no other option than to succumb to God's will. And yes its a do or die affair.
I ain't judas nor peter, so don't give me that forlorn look, Its a done deal.
With indifference
Suzanne.
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Monday, December 30, 2013
THANK YOU'S 2013
Iheanacho Chioma cynthia sushi Tata Green, I really never understood all your reasons for adopting all the plenty names,spending time with you for 12mnths straight taught me the beauty of friendships,tolerance and acceptance of sovereignty. I am blessed to have a friend like you.
Enyindah sunny peter, thanks for being my friend,confidant,backbone, if I start saying thank you I fit go on till next year. Thanks for pushing me to aspire to dream big. I see a huge 2014 for us.
Itimi jopesi this my small madam. The first blogger that allowed me into her space. Thanks for being kind with your words and encouraging me beyond reason to walk with God. I value your friendship,may we never lose contact.
Princess ucheonwu, chai this my chubby girl, you helped me when all was lost, kind words et all, may I never lose u.
Michael okeyode, you this friend of many years, nobody smart pass you mehn, we share the same birth dates and I qualify you as brother even if we hardly talk. P.S I have a blackberry now and it hasn't helped our communication.
Frank coal, bestie to dah gan. Thanks for being there.
Belema,oluchi,lizzie what would friendship mean without having you three. I wouldn't want to think of it.
Xuzia and torious God bless you guys for the laughter and good music I was graced with through you this year, I wait in earnest for the mixtape.
Emeka nobis, hammed ajiboye,sola fajana, leke alder,steve harris, eloxie, and all those twitter people. I bless the day I heard about you guys, turned my life around. I wait in earnest for your book mr emeka. God bless you guys. Adewunmi Goke you too are a blessing.
Uje,aby miss purple heart, ugo ukam, Afoma. this bloggers turned friends are women that would shake places in time to come. Am blessed to have met you guys.
Benny, I know even in secret you pray hard for I and pp. For your comments et all. May grace never cease from your life.
ANNETTE DAVIES for this friend that won't go away even with distance, I love you gan, can't wait for the shopping sprees and country touring when we finally become rich and famous. P.S I am waiting for that day, so you can actually join this streets of twitter.
And to all the other awesome folks that time and space won't allow me mention. I love you all for the support and criticism that pushed me forward. my stalkers and haters yes people won't always like me. 2014 is a huge year for all of us. I won't lose any of you and I pray earnestly that God in his infinite mercies grant you all grace to see the new year and surpass your own expectations. Amen.
P.S if I offended you in the course of living my life,online/off line, knowingly or unknowingly, I am truly sorry, and I hope you find a way in your heart o forgive ol' sue.
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